Uncovering the Old

Not being able to express myself to someone at the time I need to is a big problem of mine. I always think of something I should say or do for someone I've been thinking of, but then when it's time to put up, I shut up. 

I always think immediately afterwards, man, why didn't I say this or that, and I will continue you to think of great things I could've said or done at the time when it would've mattered, but by then it obviously doesn't matter.

I got kicked out of college today. I stressed over it for a few hours. But I'm over it now. I'm still not exactly sure what I'm going to do about it, and really it could seriously affect my life, but I was sitting here thinking about it earlier and I realized that though they can deny me an education at their university, they cannot deny me my home, my clothes, my mom, my movies, my bike, my music, my job, my friends, my good friends, or the insane amount of love I have for all of these things. The reason they can't deny me these things is because I will never let them. These things are safe with me, and these things can count on that. I can count on them. My life is sustained through them. Not an education at their university.